Almost 4 months old.

I am back!!

I can not believe that Mackenzie will be 4 months old on the 9th..... Where has time gone. It feels like yesterday that I was driving to the hospital to finally meet this little baby, now I am watching my newborn turn into a little baby girl.

She loves to play boo and lets out some really good giggles when doing so. Most of the day is filled with smiles, giggles and lots of storytelling. She is a joy to have around and I feel so blessed.

Her Reflux is becoming more and more controlled as long as she is on her medication. I am so happy to know that she is no longer in pain (for the most part).

She is sleeping so well at night. I am one lucky momma! I put her down at 8pm and she doesn't wake until 7am most nights.

The pediatrician told me a couple of weeks ago that she is infact teething. She does not think that we will see any teeth too soon but that they are there and wanting to come up. She always has her fingers, hands or is trying to eat Mommy and Daddys fingers. She is also always drooling even with an amber necklace on.

Blue, Fish and Kipton too!

Things have been going really well with Mackenzie. She is such a joy and brings so much to our lives everyday, we sure love our little girl. I can not believe she is going to be 10 weeks old tomorrow, where has the time gone? At the same time I am sure enjoying this stage. She smiles so often now and just jabbers away. Mornings are her best time and mommys favorite.I know they say babies are not supposed to be able to see colour but Kenzie sure prefers vibrant blue over anything else, so we went out and daddy picked out a cookie monster stuffy that she loves. Oh yeah she also got a vibrating bouncy chair this week as well that has become a quick favorite as well.

 I have also come to the conclusion that this little girl is going to be like her daddy and be a little fish in water. She sure loves her baths, as long as they are the right temperature. Or maybe she will be like her mama, and love water but be a chicken to jump in cause she knows it's going to be chilly. I stood on the side of a pool with my water wing on (one time while we were vacationing) telling my parents I was coming in..... I'm jumping......Watch me I'm gonna do it...... Catch me..... FOR 2 HOURS!! lol. However she turns out she will probably be a fish I just don't know if she will be a fish out of water or not...lol.

I realize this post is all about my daughter and I love her to pieces but to prove to you I have not forgotten about my doggies I leave you with a picture Kipton saying Hi to everyone in Blog land.

Complete update!

Yes I know it's been awhile since I have updated this thing called a blog,  but here I am!

So as you have all guessed or heard I gave birth!!! She is perfect.

Here is a quick version of her birth story.

At 10:00 pm Saturday June 8th my water broke. No gush but more of a trickle, so much so I was in denial that it was even my water. Midnight came and I decided to wake Mark up and drive over to the hospital to get it checked out. Sure enough after 2 hours of being there the nurse concluded that yup it was my water. How exciting!! I asked the nurse what this means and she told me that within 24-48 hours we would be holding our daughter in our arms. I balled when I heard that and Mark grinned. We were sent home till morning because the contractions were weak and minimal. When we got to the elevator to go home I asked Mark what he was thinking and he told me "It just became real". Fast forward to 930 am the next day Sunday June 9th. My mom drove down and met us at the hospital and away we went upstairs to the 4th floor. My contractions at this point had kicked in and had been consistently coming every 2-5 minutes.
The nurse checked me over and looks like I was only at 2cm. I had only progressed 1 cm all night. So we were sent away again.. this time for 4 hours. So where do we go?? Original Joes. Yup that's right Original Joes, both my Mom and Mark were hungry so we decided to get them some food. I laboured in Original Joes and let my waitress know. She was totally freaked out but a great sport and now I am famous in OJ's :) After OJ's we went for a walk in the Park and met up with friends so their 3 year old can feed the ducks. The contractions became stronger and I decided to head back to the hospital 30 minutes early. When we got there I was only 3 cm's. Since we live 25minutes away from the hospital they decided to admit me. I laboured for the rest of the day in my room. The nurses really wanted to give me meds but I didnt want nor need them so I refused, one nurse looked at me and said "I am not sure what to do with you then"..... haa haa haa! I looked at her and told her just to let me labour.

My mom had made an estimate of delivery around 8pm and this was at around 4pm. I was still at 3cm at that point and I thought no way I was going to go from 3cm's to 10cm's and have her out in 4 hours... my guess was 1am the following day.

Skip over a few hours at we are at 7pm now. The nurse did another internal to check dialation and I was STILL at 3 cm's. The contractons were getting a lot stronger now and my body kept wanting to bare down, not push exactly but bare down (that one is hard to explain) but I was told I needed to stop and not give in because it was causing my cervix to swell. It was impossible, I just could not stop my body was doing it all involuntarily. So I had to ask for some drugs that would take that part of the intensity away. I still really wanted to feel the contractions but needed the urge to be gone. I ended up with a half dose of Fentinol and man does that stuff work. It did exactly what I needed it to do took away the edge but still let me feel the contractions and pain.

8pm. Another internal STILL at 3 cm's....... You have got to be kidding me!!!! Nope!!!
It sure didnt take long though after that and the contractions changed again. This time I felt like I had to poop. Up I got to use the bathroom, well I didnt make it there when another contraction hit and this time I felt like I HAD to push. The nurse got concerned and told me to hop back up on the bed and she would check me, the contractions were changing..... Yup they sure were cause Surprise I was at 8 cm's.......WHAT REALLY??? 8 cm's!!!! Well the bed was now the place I had to stay and the dr was called to rush in. Man was that intense!!! When the dr got in the room I was progressing really quickly but he didnt want to push quite yet. I had maybe 2 minutes before I was at the full 10 cm's and was told I could push. I was floored that it was time to finally meet my little girl. I was determined that it was not going to take me long. I gave one attempt at a push but felt like I had to poop so I didnt push my hardest. I was called out for it and told to push hard and bare down. I told the doc that if I did that I would poop. He popped up and said if you end up pooping that everyone would know that I am pushing correctly. So what the heck.... Go ahead and push that poop out. Turns out I didnt have to poop instead I had to birth my daughter. I am proud to say that once I was given that go ahead, I pushed her out in 3 pushes and 3 minutes  :) and no Poop!!!

Mackenzie Grace made her debut into this world at 8:41 pm (that's right only 41 minutes after I was told that I was still at 3cm) weighing only 6lbs 4 oz and 20.25 inches long. (screw you Gestational Diabetes) and absolutely perfect.

Mackenzie was finally here and let me tell you after 3 years of praying for a baby this was so surreal and very hard to come to terms that I was now a mom of a baby here on earth. Crazy!!!

All dressed and ready to go home, even though we would be back the next day to do another blood draw to make sure that her Jaundice was getting better
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 Enough of the stories here are a couple more pictures from the next 2 months to follow this one.

8 days old

The quickest month of my life!

Boy have I grown and changed!

35 weeks

I am coming up to my 36th week.... Crazy, but I love it! She is going to be here so soon. I really am going to be a Mom!!

What does becoming a Mom mean..... Well I am not too sure yet but I have my own visions and thoughts. I think about this subject often and worry about the kind of Mommy I am going to be. All I want is to succeed at being the best Mom I can be to Bug. I want her to know that before she was even conceiced that she was loved. Her Daddy and I have waited a long time for her. I want her to feel that love everyday. I want her to know that she can come to either one of us for anything!! I hope she turns to us when she is happy, scared, confused, frustrated, angry or feeling any other emotion and know that we will try our best to encourage and help her. I want her to know that her Mommy and Daddy are her best friends and we will never go anywhere, she can count on us. I want her to know that even when she makes mistakes that we will still be there for her. I dont want her to ever feel like she is alone in this world.

 I am going to be the one that gets to look into her eyes for the very first time, hear her cries, and feel her warm pink body against mine. I will be the voice she recognizes and the very sound of my heart will bring her comfort. All of this she will never remember, but I will cherish for the rest of my life. There will be plenty of memories we make that she will make and remember, guess who gets to be in the forefront of most of those memories....ME, her Mother! I can not wait to start this next chapter of life with her. I promise to be the best Mommy I can be to you little Bug!

A little update.....

I had an ultrasound last week and the dr is happy with the results (not sure what that means I meet with him thursday). He has since upped my care though. I am having to go from 1 weekly NST's to 2, and from 1 ultrasound a month to 1ce a week. His goal is to get her as close to 39weeks gestation as possible. So that means 3.5 weeks left......MAX!!

34 weeks!

I am 34 weeks!!! Really 34 weeks, this is getting real!! The real part is after my appointment today and what the doctor told me. First off let me just say that things are progressing well and she seems to be measuring well for the most part. She still has long legs and big feet :) As well as a small head. The one concern the Doctor has is that her Belly measurements seem to be slowing down and measuring a bit behind. He is concerned that her placenta mey not be functioning at its full abilities, so he moved my next U/S up to May 27th. He will then assess what needs to happen after that. He also said that he will not let me go past 39 weeks, so that puts us at a maximum 5 weeks from now to have this baby. If the results come back from the u/s that the placenta is failing then she could be here as early as 2.5 weeks from now. So be on baby watch, it could be 2.5w-5w till little bug comes out to play.

I surprisingly feel just fine physically, she was in a weird spot yesterday that made things very tiring but has since moved back again to her favorite position and given me some breathing room. I know for a fact that she now weighs over 4 lbs. When I was at my last u/s at the begining of the month she was measuring right on 4 lbs. Her legs are her biggest measurement and her feet are already 3 inches long... I hope she gets the Breitkreutz height, but doesn't tower over her mama too quickly :) I can not wait to see who this little one looks like and what features she has. I am beyond excited to meet her!!

Another pregnancy survey

How far along?  29w5d
 
Size of Baby? Baby now weighs about 2 1/2 pounds (like a butternut squash) and is a tad over 15 inches long from head to heel.

Total weight gain: 0
 
Maternity clothes? Just pants still
 
Sleep: Still getting along with my sleep!! 
 
Miss anything? Being able to stay awake till late. Not wanting to take a nap everyday!!
 
Movement: Her movements this week have slowed right down. Of course this sends me into a panic..... She is still passing her kick counts though. She has also discovered that she can stretch and occupy the upper part of my belly, she is always so low, so this is a new experience for me.
 
Food cravings: Still not a whole lot. I do like me some french fries though and really cold beverages!!
 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Cheese sticks!!! Not cheese just cheese sticks make me vomit. Really weird I know!
 
Gender: Still all girl as far as we know!
 
Labor signs: None that I am aware of.
 
Symptoms: A lot of pubic and Round ligament pain. 
 
Belly button in or out? In, its doubtful that will change!
 
Wedding rings on or off? Still on, and no sign of them having to come off anytime soon.
 
Happy or moody most of the time: I have to be honest.... I have been struggling with depression and anxiety lately. Which is bizarre to me since I only developed depression because of my Loss history and infertility. I am getting what I want why am I so sad and anxious?? Need to talk to the dr about this. I am also very worried about PPD.

Looking forward to:  I must say both Mark and I are getting anxious in meeting our daughter.


 Here is a little treat for reading through this...... my first pregnancy pic to share with you all.

 

3 months till EDD!!!

Its officially 3 months till my due date!!! I feel like I have so much to do still. There is tons of work in the Nursery  to do. Why do I have to like things just so? It makes for a lot of work and perfection..lol. Well I did order a car seat, pack N play, swing and changing pad yesterday!! That makes me feel great!! Then this morning I ordered her a beautiful custom made crib set off of Etsy!! I will give you a sneak peek into that today. I cant wait to get her room done :)

Oh yeah and my little bug seems to really like a certain song!! Which is great cause I love it too!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGvoABERiOE   (hope that worked)

Ok here is the bedding pic.

Alot of life drama!! bit of a reflection!

I am 26 weeks today!!! That means that I am officially in the 2 digits. My daughter will be here is under 100 days.... 98 to be exact!!! Something about that seems all so exciting and totally overwhelming at the same time. Dont get me wrong I cant wait to have my baby in my arms and be looking down into her eyes, but that is in just over 3 months...... I still have a nursery to do for her and buy pretty much EVERYTHING!! I feel so unprepared.

This year has been a real roller coaster of emotions. We started off the year with the knowledge that I was pregnant and going to possibly have a baby by the middle of the year. Well that possibly is looking more and more like reality.

We just recently had an unexpected death in the family. My grandfather passed away last week and we had the funeral for him this past Saturday. He was 87 years old and really healthy as a horse. This came as a surprise the day we got the phone call that he had had a heart attack. A heart attack of all things were not on my radar of ways this man could or would pass. True to that, yes he had a heart attack but not from any blockages but from a "tired" heart. He was a man of many passions and past times. He would rarely be found relaxing or resting, there was always something to be done. So as sad as his passing was the cause was as fitting as any.

We have also been on a really bumpy Roller Coaster ride to do with finances. That is a story that I prefer not to get into too many details but just know it has played a huge part of our lives this year.

I cant wait for the light at the end of the tunnel and some of these journeys.

Pregnancy Survey

How far along? 25 weeks today!
 
Size of Baby? 13.5 inches and just over a pound and a half! About the size of a cauliflower
 
Total weight gain: I know some of you might start to get angry, but still 0!! :)
 
Maternity clothes? Still only need pants
 
Sleep: Still pretty good. I keep having my vivid dreams which interupts my quality of sleep and I usually wake up once in the night. Pretty good though.
 
Miss anything? Cant think of anything right now.

Movement: Tons and Tons!! I have felt Bug, Mark has felt Bug, We have both seen bug move.... So cool!! Totally one of the best parts of pregnancy for sure! (Bug is moving as I type) Oh yeah and Bug's favorite spot to kick or punch is my Cervix. I can tell you that is not comfortable, she hits a nerve every time and sends a shock, OUCH!!
 
Food cravings: Not a whole lot lately!
 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Yes!!! I still throw up about 2ce a week. Smells affect me, or if I eat too much, and it seems like most days I am getting nauseous again.

Gender: GIRL!!!!! I just love saying that!! I am going to have a daughter :)
 
Labor signs: Absolutely none!! Cervix is still long and closed!!!

Symptoms: I have been having some intense pressure, and round ligament pain lately. 
 
Belly button in or out? In, I am not sure if it'll ever be anything else!
 
Wedding rings on or off? Still on!!
 
Happy or moody most of the time: These past couple of weeks I have gone through a lot of sadness. I felt weepy all the time. That seems to have somewhat gone away now.......... hopefully.
 
Looking forward to: I am looking forward to having a bigger more noticeable belly. It has changed for sure but I want everyone to know I am pregnant!!

My baby Girl!

Oh yeah I guess I should include a picture of my sweet baby girl!!

U/S and Reveal

I had my Ultrasound on Friday morning, both my mom and Mark came. It went well. First I had mark come in to do all the necessary medical measurements and then my mom was able to come into the room and check out Bug. The Tec was fairly nice, she let me know what she was measuring and showed me everything on the screen. She said that bug was like a gymnast all curled up with its legs over its head, sucking on its knee. Bug wasnt being super cooperative and she wasnt sure she got all of the measurements. Well turns out the dr today told me she did and everything looked GREAT. I am growing a perfectly healthy baby. I cant be happier :) Well maybe I can a tad bit and here's why.... Both Mark and I decided that we were and are going to be celebrating everything about this pregnancy. So we wanted to do a small gender reveal party for close friends and family. We wanted the tec to write down the gender of our sweet bug on a piece of paper and have a friend stuff a cupcake with pink or blue icing. Well this tec said she could not do that but if she could tell the gender that she would have to tell us. Well God had a different plan, he wanted it to be done OUR way. Thank you Lord. We were not able to find ut the gender at this ultrasound, so when we left I called a private place in Kelowna and they were able to fit us in in the perfect time slot for our day. When we got there the Tec began the U/S and was able to tell the gender. She did not show us but instead wrote it down on a piece of paper like we were hoping for. She was Great!! She showed us Bugs chubby cheeks, long legs, big feet, and even a tuff of hair..... So cute and what a wonderful experience.

Saturday came and so did the Gender reveal party. Both Mark and I had no idea what we were having, only the baker (a close friend who was there that day) knew. At the reveal I had people guess boy or girl and grab a prop depending on that guess to take a group shot. I really wanted to record who guessed what. Well my husband was certain bug was a boy, and I had a huntch Bug was a girl. It seemed that most people went with my husband and guessed boy. There were only 4 people including myself to guess girl, the rest (14ish) guessed boy. I thought there is no way all these people can be wrong I must be wrong. Well turns out that I wasnt and we are having a little GIRL!!! I am so thrilled. It took a good couple of days for that one to sink in.

I have since gone clothes shopping for her and have had a blast doing so :)

A bug from within!!

Mark and I just got back from Langley today. We had to go down for his work and had a great time. We got to go to a couple baby stores, love doing this!! We didnt buy anything too exciting just a snuggli carrier. Mark told me he would wear baby. I cant wait to see this :) We were driving home this morning and shortly after leaving Bug decided he/she wanted some attention!! Bug began "swimming around" (not too uncommon have felt this for a little while now) but then proceeded to "beat" me up. He/She was super strong today. I can say officially for the first time I felt a kick (or punch) and it startled me each time. I LOVE IT!!!

Oops.... Pregnancy Survey

How far along? 19w2d

Size of Baby? Baby weighs about 8 1/2 ounces and measures 6 inches, head to bottom

Total weight gain: A big 0!!
 
Maternity clothes? Just the bottom part
 
Sleep: Still great, just terribly vivid dreams. Its like watching a movie all night long, with me as the star.
 
Miss anything? My boobs being out past my tummy.
 
Movement: Bug has been quiet the last few days but since yesterday has been moving around. Its not super strong yet but I love what I can feel. I really wish Bug would give me a big strong KICK. I may look back at this post and wish I never said that but right now Kick Bug Kick!!
 
Food cravings: Hmm, lets think...... So far I have had some minor food cravings and well usually give into them I must say. My most recent strong craving has been Tropicana juice, Yumm! Also I was craving Japanese food and wen tout with friends last week and boy was that tasty. I don't think I got rid of that craving but excelled it a bit...lol

Anything making you queasy or sick: This week has been great for the gagging.
 
Gender: Soon we will find out and so will all of you!! WAHOO!!
 
Labor signs: None
 
Symptoms: Headaches, Exhaustion, Growing belly (change in shape)
 
Belly button in or out? In
 
Wedding rings on or off? On (well off right now since I just finished cleaning the bathrooms.... gotta go and get them)
 
Happy or moody most of the time: A bit of both lately.
 
Looking forward to: Next week finding out if our little bug is our Son or Daughter.

Pregnancy Survey

I just noticed that this did not publish last week. I am sorry but here it is anyway!!
Read the post below to see the current Pregnancy Survey (this is last weeks).

How far along? 15w4d (as of midnight)

Size of Baby? 4 inches 2.5 ounces Approx the size of a naval orange.

Total weight gain: As of this morning down 1.5 lbs

Maternity clothes? Nope but still thinking about it!

Sleep: Same as last week.

Miss anything? I miss having diet pop.

Movement: Nothing yet..... Come on Bug move. As posted below though we have a beautiful heartbeat!!

Food cravings: Peanut butter

Anything making you queasy or sick: My cough I have developed from a cold. A scene in the Babies documentary

Gender: Either a boy or girl :)

Labor signs: Nope

Symptoms: Exhaustion

Belly button in or out? In

Wedding rings on or off? On unless I am cooking!! 

Happy or moody most of the time: Pretty happy this week, other than being sick.

Looking forward to: Eventually feeling baby and showing enough that the rest of the world knows.

Pregnancy survey and tiny update!

How far along? 16w6d (17 weeks tomorrow)

Size of Baby? 4 1/2 inches long (head to rump) and 3 1/2 ounces. This is for the 16 week. Approx. the size of an Avocado.

Total weight gain: Still nothing
 
Maternity clothes? I can still fit into my pre pregnancy jeans. I did go ahead and buy a pair of mat jeans though. They are really comfy :)
 
Sleep: Has been a bit of an issue this week. I have been waking up a lot and when I am sleepig I am having very vivid dreams that keep my mind going all night.
 
Miss anything? Not really
 
Movement: We have FLUTTERS!! This has been really great to feel and am in love with every flutter I feel.
 
Food cravings: Nothing in particular this week.

Anything making you queasy or sick: Just the toothbrush and occasional cough.
 
Gender: Still waiting 24 days...... and counting!
 
Labor signs: Nope
 
Symptoms: Still vomiting when I gag, VERY TIRED, lots of headaches this week.
 
Belly button in or out? In
 
Wedding rings on or off? On and no swelling so far.
 
Happy or moody most of the time: I have been kinda moody this week with the lack of sleep.
 
Looking forward to: Beginning to buy things in about 24 days. 


I have had a really great pregnancy so far. A few weeks of constant nausea and some exhaustion but all in all not bad. I found out a little while ago that this pregnancy has brought on a Hypothyroid. I am on some meds but I think thats why I am so tired. The drugs may need to be increased. My thyroid is only out a little bit but enough to cause drugs to fix. My dr. is very happy though because it is easily treatable and not harmful to the baby at all. So far so good. I have a Glucose test sometime this week or next. Its a 2 hr one instead.... boo!!

Baby Bug says hi!

Just thought I would share with everyone the beautiful sound of my baby's heartbeat. It is the best sound in the world. I could sit here and listen to it all day long. The little stinker made it difficult to capture as he/she kept moving around, only "daddy" could find bug. We measured it at 144bpm. I am so in love! Hope you guys enjoy :)