I am coming up to my 36th week.... Crazy, but I love it! She is going to be here so soon. I really am going to be a Mom!!
What does becoming a Mom mean..... Well I am not too sure yet but I have my own visions and thoughts. I think about this subject often and worry about the kind of Mommy I am going to be. All I want is to succeed at being the best Mom I can be to Bug. I want her to know that before she was even conceiced that she was loved. Her Daddy and I have waited a long time for her. I want her to feel that love everyday. I want her to know that she can come to either one of us for anything!! I hope she turns to us when she is happy, scared, confused, frustrated, angry or feeling any other emotion and know that we will try our best to encourage and help her. I want her to know that her Mommy and Daddy are her best friends and we will never go anywhere, she can count on us. I want her to know that even when she makes mistakes that we will still be there for her. I dont want her to ever feel like she is alone in this world.
I am going to be the one that gets to look into her eyes for the very first time, hear her cries, and feel her warm pink body against mine. I will be the voice she recognizes and the very sound of my heart will bring her comfort. All of this she will never remember, but I will cherish for the rest of my life. There will be plenty of memories we make that she will make and remember, guess who gets to be in the forefront of most of those memories....ME, her Mother! I can not wait to start this next chapter of life with her. I promise to be the best Mommy I can be to you little Bug!
A little update.....
I had an ultrasound last week and the dr is happy with the results (not sure what that means I meet with him thursday). He has since upped my care though. I am having to go from 1 weekly NST's to 2, and from 1 ultrasound a month to 1ce a week. His goal is to get her as close to 39weeks gestation as possible. So that means 3.5 weeks left......MAX!!
Monday, May 27, 2013
Thursday, May 16, 2013
34 weeks!
I am 34 weeks!!! Really 34 weeks, this is getting real!! The real part is after my appointment today and what the doctor told me. First off let me just say that things are progressing well and she seems to be measuring well for the most part. She still has long legs and big feet :) As well as a small head. The one concern the Doctor has is that her Belly measurements seem to be slowing down and measuring a bit behind. He is concerned that her placenta mey not be functioning at its full abilities, so he moved my next U/S up to May 27th. He will then assess what needs to happen after that. He also said that he will not let me go past 39 weeks, so that puts us at a maximum 5 weeks from now to have this baby. If the results come back from the u/s that the placenta is failing then she could be here as early as 2.5 weeks from now. So be on baby watch, it could be 2.5w-5w till little bug comes out to play.
I surprisingly feel just fine physically, she was in a weird spot yesterday that made things very tiring but has since moved back again to her favorite position and given me some breathing room. I know for a fact that she now weighs over 4 lbs. When I was at my last u/s at the begining of the month she was measuring right on 4 lbs. Her legs are her biggest measurement and her feet are already 3 inches long... I hope she gets the Breitkreutz height, but doesn't tower over her mama too quickly :) I can not wait to see who this little one looks like and what features she has. I am beyond excited to meet her!!
I surprisingly feel just fine physically, she was in a weird spot yesterday that made things very tiring but has since moved back again to her favorite position and given me some breathing room. I know for a fact that she now weighs over 4 lbs. When I was at my last u/s at the begining of the month she was measuring right on 4 lbs. Her legs are her biggest measurement and her feet are already 3 inches long... I hope she gets the Breitkreutz height, but doesn't tower over her mama too quickly :) I can not wait to see who this little one looks like and what features she has. I am beyond excited to meet her!!
Monday, April 15, 2013
Another pregnancy survey
How far along? 29w5d
Size of Baby? Baby now weighs about 2 1/2 pounds (like a butternut squash) and is a tad over 15 inches long from head to heel.
Total weight gain: 0
Maternity clothes? Just pants still
Sleep: Still getting along with my sleep!!
Miss anything? Being able to stay awake till late. Not wanting to take a nap everyday!!
Movement: Her movements this week have slowed right down. Of course this sends me into a panic..... She is still passing her kick counts though. She has also discovered that she can stretch and occupy the upper part of my belly, she is always so low, so this is a new experience for me.
Food cravings: Still not a whole lot. I do like me some french fries though and really cold beverages!!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Cheese sticks!!! Not cheese just cheese sticks make me vomit. Really weird I know!
Gender: Still all girl as far as we know!
Labor signs: None that I am aware of.
Symptoms: A lot of pubic and Round ligament pain.
Belly button in or out? In, its doubtful that will change!
Wedding rings on or off? Still on, and no sign of them having to come off anytime soon.
Happy or moody most of the time: I have to be honest.... I have been struggling with depression and anxiety lately. Which is bizarre to me since I only developed depression because of my Loss history and infertility. I am getting what I want why am I so sad and anxious?? Need to talk to the dr about this. I am also very worried about PPD.
Looking forward to: I must say both Mark and I are getting anxious in meeting our daughter.
Here is a little treat for reading through this...... my first pregnancy pic to share with you all.
Size of Baby? Baby now weighs about 2 1/2 pounds (like a butternut squash) and is a tad over 15 inches long from head to heel.
Total weight gain: 0
Maternity clothes? Just pants still
Sleep: Still getting along with my sleep!!
Miss anything? Being able to stay awake till late. Not wanting to take a nap everyday!!
Movement: Her movements this week have slowed right down. Of course this sends me into a panic..... She is still passing her kick counts though. She has also discovered that she can stretch and occupy the upper part of my belly, she is always so low, so this is a new experience for me.
Food cravings: Still not a whole lot. I do like me some french fries though and really cold beverages!!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Cheese sticks!!! Not cheese just cheese sticks make me vomit. Really weird I know!
Gender: Still all girl as far as we know!
Labor signs: None that I am aware of.
Symptoms: A lot of pubic and Round ligament pain.
Belly button in or out? In, its doubtful that will change!
Wedding rings on or off? Still on, and no sign of them having to come off anytime soon.
Happy or moody most of the time: I have to be honest.... I have been struggling with depression and anxiety lately. Which is bizarre to me since I only developed depression because of my Loss history and infertility. I am getting what I want why am I so sad and anxious?? Need to talk to the dr about this. I am also very worried about PPD.
Looking forward to: I must say both Mark and I are getting anxious in meeting our daughter.
Here is a little treat for reading through this...... my first pregnancy pic to share with you all.
Wednesday, March 27, 2013
3 months till EDD!!!
Its officially 3 months till my due date!!! I feel like I have so much to do still. There is tons of work in the Nursery to do. Why do I have to like things just so? It makes for a lot of work and perfection..lol. Well I did order a car seat, pack N play, swing and changing pad yesterday!! That makes me feel great!! Then this morning I ordered her a beautiful custom made crib set off of Etsy!! I will give you a sneak peek into that today. I cant wait to get her room done :)
Oh yeah and my little bug seems to really like a certain song!! Which is great cause I love it too!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGvoABERiOE (hope that worked)
Ok here is the bedding pic.
Oh yeah and my little bug seems to really like a certain song!! Which is great cause I love it too!!
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGvoABERiOE (hope that worked)
Ok here is the bedding pic.
Wednesday, March 20, 2013
Alot of life drama!! bit of a reflection!
I am 26 weeks today!!! That means that I am officially in the 2 digits. My daughter will be here is under 100 days.... 98 to be exact!!! Something about that seems all so exciting and totally overwhelming at the same time. Dont get me wrong I cant wait to have my baby in my arms and be looking down into her eyes, but that is in just over 3 months...... I still have a nursery to do for her and buy pretty much EVERYTHING!! I feel so unprepared.
This year has been a real roller coaster of emotions. We started off the year with the knowledge that I was pregnant and going to possibly have a baby by the middle of the year. Well that possibly is looking more and more like reality.
We just recently had an unexpected death in the family. My grandfather passed away last week and we had the funeral for him this past Saturday. He was 87 years old and really healthy as a horse. This came as a surprise the day we got the phone call that he had had a heart attack. A heart attack of all things were not on my radar of ways this man could or would pass. True to that, yes he had a heart attack but not from any blockages but from a "tired" heart. He was a man of many passions and past times. He would rarely be found relaxing or resting, there was always something to be done. So as sad as his passing was the cause was as fitting as any.
We have also been on a really bumpy Roller Coaster ride to do with finances. That is a story that I prefer not to get into too many details but just know it has played a huge part of our lives this year.
I cant wait for the light at the end of the tunnel and some of these journeys.
This year has been a real roller coaster of emotions. We started off the year with the knowledge that I was pregnant and going to possibly have a baby by the middle of the year. Well that possibly is looking more and more like reality.
We just recently had an unexpected death in the family. My grandfather passed away last week and we had the funeral for him this past Saturday. He was 87 years old and really healthy as a horse. This came as a surprise the day we got the phone call that he had had a heart attack. A heart attack of all things were not on my radar of ways this man could or would pass. True to that, yes he had a heart attack but not from any blockages but from a "tired" heart. He was a man of many passions and past times. He would rarely be found relaxing or resting, there was always something to be done. So as sad as his passing was the cause was as fitting as any.
We have also been on a really bumpy Roller Coaster ride to do with finances. That is a story that I prefer not to get into too many details but just know it has played a huge part of our lives this year.
I cant wait for the light at the end of the tunnel and some of these journeys.
Wednesday, March 13, 2013
Pregnancy Survey
How far along? 25 weeks today!
Size of Baby? 13.5 inches and just over a pound and a half! About the size of a cauliflower
Total weight gain: I know some of you might start to get angry, but still 0!! :)
Maternity clothes? Still only need pants
Sleep: Still pretty good. I keep having my vivid dreams which interupts my quality of sleep and I usually wake up once in the night. Pretty good though.
Miss anything? Cant think of anything right now.
Movement: Tons and Tons!! I have felt Bug, Mark has felt Bug, We have both seen bug move.... So cool!! Totally one of the best parts of pregnancy for sure! (Bug is moving as I type) Oh yeah and Bug's favorite spot to kick or punch is my Cervix. I can tell you that is not comfortable, she hits a nerve every time and sends a shock, OUCH!!
Food cravings: Not a whole lot lately!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Yes!!! I still throw up about 2ce a week. Smells affect me, or if I eat too much, and it seems like most days I am getting nauseous again.
Gender: GIRL!!!!! I just love saying that!! I am going to have a daughter :)
Labor signs: Absolutely none!! Cervix is still long and closed!!!
Symptoms: I have been having some intense pressure, and round ligament pain lately.
Belly button in or out? In, I am not sure if it'll ever be anything else!
Wedding rings on or off? Still on!!
Happy or moody most of the time: These past couple of weeks I have gone through a lot of sadness. I felt weepy all the time. That seems to have somewhat gone away now.......... hopefully.
Looking forward to: I am looking forward to having a bigger more noticeable belly. It has changed for sure but I want everyone to know I am pregnant!!
Size of Baby? 13.5 inches and just over a pound and a half! About the size of a cauliflower
Total weight gain: I know some of you might start to get angry, but still 0!! :)
Maternity clothes? Still only need pants
Sleep: Still pretty good. I keep having my vivid dreams which interupts my quality of sleep and I usually wake up once in the night. Pretty good though.
Miss anything? Cant think of anything right now.
Movement: Tons and Tons!! I have felt Bug, Mark has felt Bug, We have both seen bug move.... So cool!! Totally one of the best parts of pregnancy for sure! (Bug is moving as I type) Oh yeah and Bug's favorite spot to kick or punch is my Cervix. I can tell you that is not comfortable, she hits a nerve every time and sends a shock, OUCH!!
Food cravings: Not a whole lot lately!
Anything making you queasy or sick: Yes!!! I still throw up about 2ce a week. Smells affect me, or if I eat too much, and it seems like most days I am getting nauseous again.
Gender: GIRL!!!!! I just love saying that!! I am going to have a daughter :)
Labor signs: Absolutely none!! Cervix is still long and closed!!!
Symptoms: I have been having some intense pressure, and round ligament pain lately.
Belly button in or out? In, I am not sure if it'll ever be anything else!
Wedding rings on or off? Still on!!
Happy or moody most of the time: These past couple of weeks I have gone through a lot of sadness. I felt weepy all the time. That seems to have somewhat gone away now.......... hopefully.
Looking forward to: I am looking forward to having a bigger more noticeable belly. It has changed for sure but I want everyone to know I am pregnant!!
Tuesday, February 12, 2013
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