Almost 4 months old.

I am back!!

I can not believe that Mackenzie will be 4 months old on the 9th..... Where has time gone. It feels like yesterday that I was driving to the hospital to finally meet this little baby, now I am watching my newborn turn into a little baby girl.

She loves to play boo and lets out some really good giggles when doing so. Most of the day is filled with smiles, giggles and lots of storytelling. She is a joy to have around and I feel so blessed.

Her Reflux is becoming more and more controlled as long as she is on her medication. I am so happy to know that she is no longer in pain (for the most part).

She is sleeping so well at night. I am one lucky momma! I put her down at 8pm and she doesn't wake until 7am most nights.

The pediatrician told me a couple of weeks ago that she is infact teething. She does not think that we will see any teeth too soon but that they are there and wanting to come up. She always has her fingers, hands or is trying to eat Mommy and Daddys fingers. She is also always drooling even with an amber necklace on.

Blue, Fish and Kipton too!

Things have been going really well with Mackenzie. She is such a joy and brings so much to our lives everyday, we sure love our little girl. I can not believe she is going to be 10 weeks old tomorrow, where has the time gone? At the same time I am sure enjoying this stage. She smiles so often now and just jabbers away. Mornings are her best time and mommys favorite.I know they say babies are not supposed to be able to see colour but Kenzie sure prefers vibrant blue over anything else, so we went out and daddy picked out a cookie monster stuffy that she loves. Oh yeah she also got a vibrating bouncy chair this week as well that has become a quick favorite as well.

 I have also come to the conclusion that this little girl is going to be like her daddy and be a little fish in water. She sure loves her baths, as long as they are the right temperature. Or maybe she will be like her mama, and love water but be a chicken to jump in cause she knows it's going to be chilly. I stood on the side of a pool with my water wing on (one time while we were vacationing) telling my parents I was coming in..... I'm jumping......Watch me I'm gonna do it...... Catch me..... FOR 2 HOURS!! lol. However she turns out she will probably be a fish I just don't know if she will be a fish out of water or not...lol.

I realize this post is all about my daughter and I love her to pieces but to prove to you I have not forgotten about my doggies I leave you with a picture Kipton saying Hi to everyone in Blog land.

Complete update!

Yes I know it's been awhile since I have updated this thing called a blog,  but here I am!

So as you have all guessed or heard I gave birth!!! She is perfect.

Here is a quick version of her birth story.

At 10:00 pm Saturday June 8th my water broke. No gush but more of a trickle, so much so I was in denial that it was even my water. Midnight came and I decided to wake Mark up and drive over to the hospital to get it checked out. Sure enough after 2 hours of being there the nurse concluded that yup it was my water. How exciting!! I asked the nurse what this means and she told me that within 24-48 hours we would be holding our daughter in our arms. I balled when I heard that and Mark grinned. We were sent home till morning because the contractions were weak and minimal. When we got to the elevator to go home I asked Mark what he was thinking and he told me "It just became real". Fast forward to 930 am the next day Sunday June 9th. My mom drove down and met us at the hospital and away we went upstairs to the 4th floor. My contractions at this point had kicked in and had been consistently coming every 2-5 minutes.
The nurse checked me over and looks like I was only at 2cm. I had only progressed 1 cm all night. So we were sent away again.. this time for 4 hours. So where do we go?? Original Joes. Yup that's right Original Joes, both my Mom and Mark were hungry so we decided to get them some food. I laboured in Original Joes and let my waitress know. She was totally freaked out but a great sport and now I am famous in OJ's :) After OJ's we went for a walk in the Park and met up with friends so their 3 year old can feed the ducks. The contractions became stronger and I decided to head back to the hospital 30 minutes early. When we got there I was only 3 cm's. Since we live 25minutes away from the hospital they decided to admit me. I laboured for the rest of the day in my room. The nurses really wanted to give me meds but I didnt want nor need them so I refused, one nurse looked at me and said "I am not sure what to do with you then"..... haa haa haa! I looked at her and told her just to let me labour.

My mom had made an estimate of delivery around 8pm and this was at around 4pm. I was still at 3cm at that point and I thought no way I was going to go from 3cm's to 10cm's and have her out in 4 hours... my guess was 1am the following day.

Skip over a few hours at we are at 7pm now. The nurse did another internal to check dialation and I was STILL at 3 cm's. The contractons were getting a lot stronger now and my body kept wanting to bare down, not push exactly but bare down (that one is hard to explain) but I was told I needed to stop and not give in because it was causing my cervix to swell. It was impossible, I just could not stop my body was doing it all involuntarily. So I had to ask for some drugs that would take that part of the intensity away. I still really wanted to feel the contractions but needed the urge to be gone. I ended up with a half dose of Fentinol and man does that stuff work. It did exactly what I needed it to do took away the edge but still let me feel the contractions and pain.

8pm. Another internal STILL at 3 cm's....... You have got to be kidding me!!!! Nope!!!
It sure didnt take long though after that and the contractions changed again. This time I felt like I had to poop. Up I got to use the bathroom, well I didnt make it there when another contraction hit and this time I felt like I HAD to push. The nurse got concerned and told me to hop back up on the bed and she would check me, the contractions were changing..... Yup they sure were cause Surprise I was at 8 cm's.......WHAT REALLY??? 8 cm's!!!! Well the bed was now the place I had to stay and the dr was called to rush in. Man was that intense!!! When the dr got in the room I was progressing really quickly but he didnt want to push quite yet. I had maybe 2 minutes before I was at the full 10 cm's and was told I could push. I was floored that it was time to finally meet my little girl. I was determined that it was not going to take me long. I gave one attempt at a push but felt like I had to poop so I didnt push my hardest. I was called out for it and told to push hard and bare down. I told the doc that if I did that I would poop. He popped up and said if you end up pooping that everyone would know that I am pushing correctly. So what the heck.... Go ahead and push that poop out. Turns out I didnt have to poop instead I had to birth my daughter. I am proud to say that once I was given that go ahead, I pushed her out in 3 pushes and 3 minutes  :) and no Poop!!!

Mackenzie Grace made her debut into this world at 8:41 pm (that's right only 41 minutes after I was told that I was still at 3cm) weighing only 6lbs 4 oz and 20.25 inches long. (screw you Gestational Diabetes) and absolutely perfect.

Mackenzie was finally here and let me tell you after 3 years of praying for a baby this was so surreal and very hard to come to terms that I was now a mom of a baby here on earth. Crazy!!!

All dressed and ready to go home, even though we would be back the next day to do another blood draw to make sure that her Jaundice was getting better
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 Enough of the stories here are a couple more pictures from the next 2 months to follow this one.

8 days old

The quickest month of my life!

Boy have I grown and changed!

35 weeks

I am coming up to my 36th week.... Crazy, but I love it! She is going to be here so soon. I really am going to be a Mom!!

What does becoming a Mom mean..... Well I am not too sure yet but I have my own visions and thoughts. I think about this subject often and worry about the kind of Mommy I am going to be. All I want is to succeed at being the best Mom I can be to Bug. I want her to know that before she was even conceiced that she was loved. Her Daddy and I have waited a long time for her. I want her to feel that love everyday. I want her to know that she can come to either one of us for anything!! I hope she turns to us when she is happy, scared, confused, frustrated, angry or feeling any other emotion and know that we will try our best to encourage and help her. I want her to know that her Mommy and Daddy are her best friends and we will never go anywhere, she can count on us. I want her to know that even when she makes mistakes that we will still be there for her. I dont want her to ever feel like she is alone in this world.

 I am going to be the one that gets to look into her eyes for the very first time, hear her cries, and feel her warm pink body against mine. I will be the voice she recognizes and the very sound of my heart will bring her comfort. All of this she will never remember, but I will cherish for the rest of my life. There will be plenty of memories we make that she will make and remember, guess who gets to be in the forefront of most of those memories....ME, her Mother! I can not wait to start this next chapter of life with her. I promise to be the best Mommy I can be to you little Bug!

A little update.....

I had an ultrasound last week and the dr is happy with the results (not sure what that means I meet with him thursday). He has since upped my care though. I am having to go from 1 weekly NST's to 2, and from 1 ultrasound a month to 1ce a week. His goal is to get her as close to 39weeks gestation as possible. So that means 3.5 weeks left......MAX!!

34 weeks!

I am 34 weeks!!! Really 34 weeks, this is getting real!! The real part is after my appointment today and what the doctor told me. First off let me just say that things are progressing well and she seems to be measuring well for the most part. She still has long legs and big feet :) As well as a small head. The one concern the Doctor has is that her Belly measurements seem to be slowing down and measuring a bit behind. He is concerned that her placenta mey not be functioning at its full abilities, so he moved my next U/S up to May 27th. He will then assess what needs to happen after that. He also said that he will not let me go past 39 weeks, so that puts us at a maximum 5 weeks from now to have this baby. If the results come back from the u/s that the placenta is failing then she could be here as early as 2.5 weeks from now. So be on baby watch, it could be 2.5w-5w till little bug comes out to play.

I surprisingly feel just fine physically, she was in a weird spot yesterday that made things very tiring but has since moved back again to her favorite position and given me some breathing room. I know for a fact that she now weighs over 4 lbs. When I was at my last u/s at the begining of the month she was measuring right on 4 lbs. Her legs are her biggest measurement and her feet are already 3 inches long... I hope she gets the Breitkreutz height, but doesn't tower over her mama too quickly :) I can not wait to see who this little one looks like and what features she has. I am beyond excited to meet her!!

Another pregnancy survey

How far along?  29w5d
 
Size of Baby? Baby now weighs about 2 1/2 pounds (like a butternut squash) and is a tad over 15 inches long from head to heel.

Total weight gain: 0
 
Maternity clothes? Just pants still
 
Sleep: Still getting along with my sleep!! 
 
Miss anything? Being able to stay awake till late. Not wanting to take a nap everyday!!
 
Movement: Her movements this week have slowed right down. Of course this sends me into a panic..... She is still passing her kick counts though. She has also discovered that she can stretch and occupy the upper part of my belly, she is always so low, so this is a new experience for me.
 
Food cravings: Still not a whole lot. I do like me some french fries though and really cold beverages!!
 
Anything making you queasy or sick: Cheese sticks!!! Not cheese just cheese sticks make me vomit. Really weird I know!
 
Gender: Still all girl as far as we know!
 
Labor signs: None that I am aware of.
 
Symptoms: A lot of pubic and Round ligament pain. 
 
Belly button in or out? In, its doubtful that will change!
 
Wedding rings on or off? Still on, and no sign of them having to come off anytime soon.
 
Happy or moody most of the time: I have to be honest.... I have been struggling with depression and anxiety lately. Which is bizarre to me since I only developed depression because of my Loss history and infertility. I am getting what I want why am I so sad and anxious?? Need to talk to the dr about this. I am also very worried about PPD.

Looking forward to:  I must say both Mark and I are getting anxious in meeting our daughter.


 Here is a little treat for reading through this...... my first pregnancy pic to share with you all.

 

3 months till EDD!!!

Its officially 3 months till my due date!!! I feel like I have so much to do still. There is tons of work in the Nursery  to do. Why do I have to like things just so? It makes for a lot of work and perfection..lol. Well I did order a car seat, pack N play, swing and changing pad yesterday!! That makes me feel great!! Then this morning I ordered her a beautiful custom made crib set off of Etsy!! I will give you a sneak peek into that today. I cant wait to get her room done :)

Oh yeah and my little bug seems to really like a certain song!! Which is great cause I love it too!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=vGvoABERiOE   (hope that worked)

Ok here is the bedding pic.